Three weeks ago I got back in touch with my ex-girlfriend, I was with her for almost two years from 2007 to 2009. This was the first extended conversation I had had with her since we broken up last September (to this day I still couldn't tell you what I was thinking back then), it was through this first conversation where I learn about her plans to move in with me...ironically...the very weekend I decided to end things. We even talked about how it would be if we didn't break up and I asked her if she thought that we would have been married by now and she told me that we would seriously be talking about it. She even told me that she was going to tell her father about being with me (a black man), which would of been a big step for her. I was THIS CLOSE to having everything I wanted in a relationship, someone I could come home to every night, someone who would love me for who I was and would do anything for me.
But I ruined it over some bullshit. And now I'm struggling to pick up the pieces of what we once had and hoping for the best. But this is what I want, this is what I always wanted. Just to have her back in my life makes it all worthwhile. I'm going to marry this girl one day. She is the one for me.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
The Winds of Change
Well its been about four months since I made a post on here. Events in my life have taken a turn and not all of them have been for the better. I was able to go see my daughter in Michigan for a week back in March and I had a wonderful time with her and her mother. Sometimes the thought crosses my mind of what could of been. If I hadn't of left three years ago this month. I had made a substantial purchase before my trip using my tax refund, (Instead of doing the responsible thing and use it to pay off debts), and picked up a new/refurbished (well its new to me...because I didn't have it before) Canon VIXIA HG20 high-definition camcorder. Best $500 I have ever spent, and I'm glad I had it with me so I could take some video to show my family. Not to mention the fact that I have always been interested in video-editing as a hobby and a potential new revenue stream for my finances. This time around, compared to when I went up to Battle Creek with my cousin, Tyler, instead of flying again I decided to make it a road trip. I had also took the time to go visit my friend Cindy in Cincinnati, Ohio. A woman that I have known for years but this was the first time we had met face to face. I had a great time with her and her then-finace, now husband, Shawn. So all in all, the travel time on the road was about 18 hours each way.
The only major problem that I had ran into while I was up there was that Kim, Nevaeh and myself had gotten professional pictures taken in Kalamazoo. And the cost of those getting done was A LOT more that I expected. (about $120 more...especially for Wal-mart) So I took a big hit there. I'm still dealing with the fallout from that happening. As I'm trying to catch up on all of my bills and everything five weeks later. I not completely in dire straits but its been pretty rough for me. Now on top of that, I'm trying to save up to buy some plane tickets for my daughter and her mother so they can come down to Delaware to visit and meet both my immediate and extended family and friends. The date that we have our eyes set on is July 22, right in time for the start of "Fair Week" aka The Delaware State Fair (July 22-July 31). I'm really looking forward to it.
Another major event going on in my life is that I am currently single. I had broken up with my-ex, Krystal, shortly after I returned from Michigan. And had a short relationship with another woman that didn't work out either. I just feel like that there has been so much going on in my life that I needed a break from trying to make a relationship work on top of all that, and to try to let love find me instead of constantly looking for love. I've been in contact with a couple of women from my past for the last few weeks now and it all has been going pretty well but I'm not actively pursuing any relationships at this time.
The only major problem that I had ran into while I was up there was that Kim, Nevaeh and myself had gotten professional pictures taken in Kalamazoo. And the cost of those getting done was A LOT more that I expected. (about $120 more...especially for Wal-mart) So I took a big hit there. I'm still dealing with the fallout from that happening. As I'm trying to catch up on all of my bills and everything five weeks later. I not completely in dire straits but its been pretty rough for me. Now on top of that, I'm trying to save up to buy some plane tickets for my daughter and her mother so they can come down to Delaware to visit and meet both my immediate and extended family and friends. The date that we have our eyes set on is July 22, right in time for the start of "Fair Week" aka The Delaware State Fair (July 22-July 31). I'm really looking forward to it.
Another major event going on in my life is that I am currently single. I had broken up with my-ex, Krystal, shortly after I returned from Michigan. And had a short relationship with another woman that didn't work out either. I just feel like that there has been so much going on in my life that I needed a break from trying to make a relationship work on top of all that, and to try to let love find me instead of constantly looking for love. I've been in contact with a couple of women from my past for the last few weeks now and it all has been going pretty well but I'm not actively pursuing any relationships at this time.
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